I had two upcoming trips for work and wouldn't be around during the most important part of my cycle (ovulation!) so it was a good time for us to take a little break. This also gave me time to meet with the new Dr. at the new clinic and figure out our new gameplan.
During this 2 month break, I went back on the pill. I know, sounds crazy. Why on earth would I go back on the pill when I'm trying to get pregnant? Trust me, I feel the same way. I was in tears that first day I took that first pill. I pretty much had to force it down. I was doing the one thing that I knew would not allow me to get pregnant, however, I also knew the facts and the Dr. agreed. Getting back on the pill would give me a big hormone boost and improve my chances for the next cycle off the pill. Plus I wasn't going to be around Jason during ovulation anyways..so somehow, it made sense.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Friday, April 15, 2011
Knowledge is Power
Here we are. Four months after we began our journey and still nothing. Not even a glimpse of success, a glimpse of hope that what we are doing is working. Has all this emotional, financial and physical commitment done anything?? Will I ever be pregnant and get to share the joy of motherhood? I can't put into words the heartbreak we feel and the loss of hope we're going through.
The one thing I have gained these last four months, is knowledge. And knowledge is power...right? According to some...ahem Dr. Corfman...it's not.
I set another appointment to meet with Dr. Corfman to talk about the last four cycles, what changes we can make for our last two cycles to make this work, and to just get some re-assurance from him. As any person should for any medical issue, I did my own research on infertility (testing, conditions, treatments, etc) and I wanted to do some further testing to find out why I wasn't getting pregnant. Why was this not working and what was wrong with me?? However, Dr. Corfman was not on the same page as me. He felt the treatment we were doing was efficient and although I asked for additional bloodwork during different stages of my cycle, he didn't agree, he thought it was a waste of time and money. He knew I was not here to talk about IVF as that was not an option for us at this time, but he still said to me "You should really starting thinking about IVF or adoption". WHAT?!? Not only did I feel you were giving up on me, but you even suggested adoption when we haven't even finished our six cycles! I looked at him and said "Am I a patient or a customer to you!". This meeting was over.
The next day I ordered my file and switched clinics.
The one thing I have gained these last four months, is knowledge. And knowledge is power...right? According to some...ahem Dr. Corfman...it's not.
I set another appointment to meet with Dr. Corfman to talk about the last four cycles, what changes we can make for our last two cycles to make this work, and to just get some re-assurance from him. As any person should for any medical issue, I did my own research on infertility (testing, conditions, treatments, etc) and I wanted to do some further testing to find out why I wasn't getting pregnant. Why was this not working and what was wrong with me?? However, Dr. Corfman was not on the same page as me. He felt the treatment we were doing was efficient and although I asked for additional bloodwork during different stages of my cycle, he didn't agree, he thought it was a waste of time and money. He knew I was not here to talk about IVF as that was not an option for us at this time, but he still said to me "You should really starting thinking about IVF or adoption". WHAT?!? Not only did I feel you were giving up on me, but you even suggested adoption when we haven't even finished our six cycles! I looked at him and said "Am I a patient or a customer to you!". This meeting was over.
The next day I ordered my file and switched clinics.
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