Patience

I've learned so much about myself the last few years. I guess it's true, sometimes the worst brings out the best in us. 

For those of you that have known me, would probably agree I have many Type A tendencies: ambitious, agressive, controlling, impatient, highly competitive. But hey, it was who I was and it helped me achieve so much of what I wanted in life. But it turns out that no matter what I could do, I still couldn't quite achieve my true dream, my dream of being a mother.

The last few years have put us through more than I ever imagined and that changed who we are. I'll always be ambitious to achieve my goals and perhaps a bit competitive, but I've definitely learned that I can't control everything.  In fact, a lot of our lives isn't in our hands or in our control and that can be a hard thing to let go of and accept. Without control, you have no other choice but to learn patience. They come hand-in-hand. And for that, "Patience is the greatest of all virtues" (Cato the Elder, 234 BC - 149 BC).

I've learned to accept and embrace patience and although it's not an easy thing to do, it does make things easier. I don't think I'll ever truly rid myself of being alot like a Type A personality, but now I'd like to think of myself as a nice mix between A and B. At the end of the day, I'm a better person inside and out, and for that, I'm thankful.