sh
n)n.1. A powerful emotion, such as love, joy, hatred, or anger.
2. Ardent love.
3.The object of such love or desire or enthusiasm.
ob·ses·sion (b-s
shn, 
b-)n.
Passion and obsession are two very different things by definition, although sometimes they can feel the same and it may seem hard to differentiate between the two. I also feel as though one can lead to the other and vice versa; myself being a perfect example of that.
Two years ago when we started this journey, I didn't think twice or worry about what was going to lie ahead for us. Of course I didn't really think it would happen the first month or anything, but I never thought we'd be here, two years later, still facing infertility, and without a happy, healthy, beautiful baby in our arms.
When first starting fertility treatments, I put my faith in what we were doing would work and after month after month of disappointment and heartache, I began to obsess. Part of that came from the research I had been doing on treatments and natural ways at making my body more fertile and the other part of it was my longing to make this work. It consumed my every day life. This was not a good thing and it made me feel worse and less hopeful. I couldn't figure out how to turn this obsession into something positive and helpful. It was like the more I learned and the more involved in the process I became...the worse off I was.
Somewhere along the way, I learned to let go a little bit and things got easier. I believe my weekly acupuncture treatments were a big part of this, they really helped me find my inner-self again. I also had to make the conscious decision to no longer obsess. I stopped spending so much time researching and finding information online and put all my fertility books away. I realized that I was already doing everything I could to make this work and although I wanted answers, obsessing wouldn't give those to me. I took those negative obsessive feelings and made them positive...made them passionate.
Being able to share my journey on here with all of you has been a blessing in disguise. It made me realize I'm no longer obsessed, but just passionate about my life and more importantly, the future of my family. The emotion I feel and the emotion I share with you is very real and very strong. My longing for a family has not diminished, but it no longer rules my life. I will continue on this journey and keep my passion alive because I know it will bring us a happy ending.
And thanks to a certain someone who recognized my passion and truly helped me come to terms with it. Sometimes its harder to see it in yourself and I'm lucky to have people in my life to make me realize differently.
b-sshn, b-)n.1. Compulsive preoccupation with a fixed idea or an unwanted feeling or emotion, often accompanied by symptoms of anxiety.
2. A compulsive, often unreasonable idea or emotion.
Passion and obsession are two very different things by definition, although sometimes they can feel the same and it may seem hard to differentiate between the two. I also feel as though one can lead to the other and vice versa; myself being a perfect example of that.
Two years ago when we started this journey, I didn't think twice or worry about what was going to lie ahead for us. Of course I didn't really think it would happen the first month or anything, but I never thought we'd be here, two years later, still facing infertility, and without a happy, healthy, beautiful baby in our arms.
When first starting fertility treatments, I put my faith in what we were doing would work and after month after month of disappointment and heartache, I began to obsess. Part of that came from the research I had been doing on treatments and natural ways at making my body more fertile and the other part of it was my longing to make this work. It consumed my every day life. This was not a good thing and it made me feel worse and less hopeful. I couldn't figure out how to turn this obsession into something positive and helpful. It was like the more I learned and the more involved in the process I became...the worse off I was.
Somewhere along the way, I learned to let go a little bit and things got easier. I believe my weekly acupuncture treatments were a big part of this, they really helped me find my inner-self again. I also had to make the conscious decision to no longer obsess. I stopped spending so much time researching and finding information online and put all my fertility books away. I realized that I was already doing everything I could to make this work and although I wanted answers, obsessing wouldn't give those to me. I took those negative obsessive feelings and made them positive...made them passionate.
Being able to share my journey on here with all of you has been a blessing in disguise. It made me realize I'm no longer obsessed, but just passionate about my life and more importantly, the future of my family. The emotion I feel and the emotion I share with you is very real and very strong. My longing for a family has not diminished, but it no longer rules my life. I will continue on this journey and keep my passion alive because I know it will bring us a happy ending.
And thanks to a certain someone who recognized my passion and truly helped me come to terms with it. Sometimes its harder to see it in yourself and I'm lucky to have people in my life to make me realize differently.
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