Hi Ho..Hi Ho..

...Back to work I go...

I've been dreading this day since the day she was born, but knew it was inevitable. I always knew I wasn't the stay-at-home type, however I loved my time at home with Miss Eva. I wouldn't trade it for anything. Sure it was hard at first and there were plenty of tears, but we got into a routine and had some really great times just hanging out and getting to know each other. Being at home is the hardest job I've ever had but also the most rewarding. I wish I could be home part-time with her, but it's just not doable for us right now. Maybe someday!

I tried to prepare myself for this, but how can you? J always tried to explain to me how hard it was to go back to work and then come home and change gears. You are mentally exhausted from working all day and would love to come home and relax, but Eva needs you and you also want to spend as much time and energy you have left in the day, on her. After Day One, I totally got what he meant. This is exhausting!

Being back at work does feel good. I really enjoy my job and my coworkers, which really helps, and having adult interaction again is great! Though I'm definitely distracted and constantly find myself daydreaming and trying to envision what Eva is up to throughout the day. Thankfully my mom and girlfriend are watching Eva until she starts daycare at the end of November, so they don't mind when I call and text to check in...multiple times a day. And of course the highlight of my day is when I go pick her up and she smiles when she sees me. Melts. My. Heart.

I made it through the week without shedding a tear but picking her up Friday afternoon was the best! I knew it meant I got to spend ALL weekend with her ... before we start all over again on Monday...
The weekends definitely mean even more to me now than ever. Looking forward to soaking up as much Eva time as I can!