The True Test

How did we get here? Why hasn't anything worked?? What's wrong with me????
Why am I being punished? Why am I being with-held from the one thing I long to have?!? What have I done to deserve this?? I feel so empty and lonely - why isn't God here when I need him most?

I don't have any answers and I don't think I ever will. Somehow, I just need to have faith. As if it were that easy..

I've always been a faithful person. I was surrounded by faith growing up and always believed. Up to this point, I had always felt God had given me a great life.
I thank my Mother for her faithful advice. This has been my true test of faith, and I will make it through this. I need to thank God for what I DO have. We have jobs that will allow us to make the next step in our journey and we have family and friends who are here to support and love us. These are things He made possible and she's right, I haven't thanked Him enough for these things, but instead all I've been doing is questioning Him and being angry with Him.

This is my test and I will pass it (hopefully ace it!); it's definitely broadened my faith and opened my eyes. I know one day I'll look back and see His plan more clearly.